Life comes at you fast, my life comes at me very fast in fact, i normally don't have time to sit down and think and plot and write any more.
It seems like i have to give people bullet points just to keep things up to speed, but i haven't even managed to do that much but here i am typing none the less.
I just feel so "talked out" about things, like i'm having a hard time being cynical now, and a level of apathy i never experienced before,i don't seem to care what i'm told anymore, someone saying my house exploded would be met with a "meh" i'm not angry i'm not simply apathetic i'm just...lost?
I can't think of any other way to put it...i just feel lost and alone with no direction. Yes yes yes i know everyone likes to help and point me in a direction, but it doesn't help to have 15 people pointing different ways.
things moving so fast with such a lack of direction can get really disorientating by the way...so here before i get distracted the bullet points of the past few weeks.
- My cousin died, he was 22 had 3 kids.
- Due to family conflict we couldn't get his body for 5 days.
- The day we decided to drive down Steve beats up my Mother.
- I get a ticket driving down to Memphis.
- I get lied to and told we were moving to Austin, TX the day we return.
- I spent 4 days at Paul's house because I couldn't handle my mother.
- Was called monday and told by my mother "Steve is picking me up, i'll see you at the house".
- I'm currently staying with my aunt.